I am so blah tonight.  I miss him and I feel stupid for missing him.  I thought we had this great connection.  I mean, I know we had a connection.  I just don't think we are on the same page with our connection.   I haven't seen him in almost a month.  He was out of town and then busy with work. I had my son's wedding and have had a few bad days.  But the thing is, my connection doesn't allow those things to keep me from seeing someone I want to be with.  I guess in my head I thought I would develop this great relationship with him.  But now I am thinking not so much.  The relationship I seek doesn't let stuff get in the way.  Now keep in mind, I'm not stupid.  I realize sometimes life does get in the way.  However, you're supposed to be there for one another.  In a relationship I see myself as a positive thing, providing comfort and peace, giving love and caring no matter the situation.  If we're too tired, then just the fact of sleeping next to one another is a good thing. Etc. Etc. Etc. Blah. Blah. Blah.

So anyway, here I am missing a man that I probably should not be missing.  Big dork.